Anorexia and the Brain
The Link Between Neurology and Eating Disorders:
An Interview with Bette Lamont
By Cat Saunders
Seven out of ten people--around the world in every culture--suffer some
amount of brain trauma just being born. After that, people may get hit
on the head, fall off a bicycle, have a car accident, or perhaps just
collide with a cupboard door so that they "see stars."
In addition to these mishaps, people may grow up in families where there
is abuse, physical or emotional neglect, severe repression, or simply
a lack of knowledge about what children need to grow and be healthy.
All of these factors can affect the development and functioning of the
brain. In innovative research, scientists have been discovering more about
how traumatic childhood experiences can actually alter the chemical makeup
and synaptic functioning of brain cells. In addition, this research is
revealing exactly how these alterations in brain function can, in fact,
result in a wide variety of physical, mental, and psychological difficulties
later in life.
Thus, many issues that people suppose to be purely psychological, can
also have an important neurological component. Since the late 1970s, a
form of therapy called Developmental Movement Therapy has begun to address
this overlap between brain function and psychological health.
Originally begun in the late 1940s as a way to help people with significant
brain injury, this work was pioneered by a neurosurgeon named Temple Fay
and a nurse named Florence Scott, along with their associates in the fields
of education and physical therapy.
Several people in the United States, including Florence Scott, have continued
to develop this work. One such practitioner is Bette Lamont, who apprenticed
with Scott for many years and later founded the Developmental Movement
Center and Developmental Movement Consultants in Seattle (see end of article
for contact information).
In the following interview, I asked Bette about her work with helping
clients to restore full brain function through Developmental Movement
Therapy, also called neurological repatterning work.
Initially, she answered questions about the basic functions of the lower
brain (pons level) and the midbrain, including a discussion of the physical,
mental, emotional, and spiritual issues associated with these different
parts of the brain. After laying this groundwork, Bette then addressed
some of the neurological issues specifically related to anorexia and the
brain.
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In very simple terms, the work you do involves the brain
stem or pons level, the midbrain, and the cortex. Would you talk first
about how pons level problems can show up at the psychological level?
People who have brain stem--or pons level--dysfunction often don't have
good self-caretaking skills. If you have pons level damage in the extreme,
you will stop breathing and die. But pons level issues run on a continuum.
Frequently, people who have these issues may report that they don't know
why they're alive, they may not feel very interested in being alive, they
may feel isolated or alienated from other people, or they may have suicidal
tendencies. They often don't have good life-preserving skills because
they literally can't perceive what is a threat to them.
People without a good sense of physical pain often don't have a good sense
of emotional pain, either. They may be in a horrible relationship, but
not even realize they are in pain until they do neurological repatterning
work. One of our basic functions neurologically is to be able to feel
pain, and to then be able to take ourselves out of painful situations.
Healthy babies have a powerful knowing of their right to be here. They
may not look very powerful because they are so tiny, but when you look
at what they're doing, their actions are all life-preserving. Their brains
tell them to cry when they're hungry, demand help if they are in some
discomfort, or crawl to get away from danger. Everything about these babies
says, "I have the right to be here. I deserve to live."
After I completed my pons level repatterning work, I noticed that I
didn't have that previously pervasive "I'm not good enough"
thought anymore.
By the time I found out about your work, I'd already
done more than 20 years of work on myself using all kinds of therapeutic
disciplines, bodywork techniques, and spiritual practices. Yet my underlying
experience of not feeling "good enough" persisted until I got
my pons level "hooked up."
Feeling "good enough" is about the fundamental right to be here.
Pons level function can be disrupted--for all kinds of reasons--early
in life, so people don't realize this foundation piece is missing, since
it has been missing since the very beginning of their lives. But we all
deserve this fundamental knowing of our right to be.
If our brains are fully functioning, the feeling of being
"good enough" should be present without effort. We shouldn't
have to work at it.
Another thing that fascinates me about the brain is its relationship
to bonding. You described the bonding process to me in terms of three
stages. When you're first born, you don't know the difference between
yourself and your mother (or other primary caregiver). At first, there
is no sense of separateness.
Then, sometime during the first year, you go through a separation stage--which
causes a lot of anxiety--when you realize that you and your mother are
separate. If you continue to get everything you need to develop in a healthy
way, you will progress to the third stage of bonding, which involves the
development of your capacity to perceive your separateness and still feel
safe.
At that point, you will be able to love and be loved, without having to
"merge with the other person. You also mentioned that a disruption
in these developmental stages of bonding could contribute to codependent
behavior later in life. Would you say more about that?
There is no absolute distinction between neurologically based responses
and psychologically based responses. It is a continuum. This is why we
advise clients to be in therapy during the year to two years it usually
takes to do their neurological repatterning work. Lots of feelings can
come up when you do this kind of work, and people often need help to consciously
sort through and express all these feelings in a safe way.
Other than brief appointments to check people's repatterning movements,
we generally only see clients about every two months for reevaluations.
Since their movement work is done daily on their own at home, it's helpful
for people to have the support of a good therapist, especially one who
is knowledgeable about developmental stages.
It is typical for dysfunctional families to have many levels of dysfunction
happening simultaneously. Often, a child who grows up unable to bond will
have grown up in with parents who do not know how to appropriately nurture
the child because these parents may not have finished their own developmental
integration. Such parents may be remote and unresponsive, have a "flat
affect," or be disinclined to reach out to meet the baby's needs.
If the baby is herself neurologically compromised, she may not be asking
for her needs to be met in the insistent way healthy babies do. When both
parent and child are unable to go through the steps of bonding, some pretty
profound disconnections can develop over time.
The capacity to bond is first of all a neurological process. You
can have a wonderful family and still not be able to bond, if your neurological
development has been impaired in some way--through a difficult birth,
a head injury, emotional trauma, or a lack of developmental opportunity.
Babies who have gone through all of their developmental stages, including
creeping and crawling, have a better chance to integrate healthy emotional
responses. It is these movements that support healthy brain development,
and it is these same movements--along with others associated with our
first two years of life in particular--which are used in Developmental
Movement Therapy to help clients restore full functioning of their brains.
If for any reason pons level development is impaired, we may not move
out of the separation anxiety stage. If we don't get to the stage where
we can be separate and safe, we may always be trying to return to the
only kind of bonding we can remember, which is the "merged"
kind of bond we experienced at the beginning of our lives.
Then, if we didn't learn to bond in a healthy way early in life, we will
tend to repeat the pattern of wanting to "merge" in order to
feel loved. This may show up later in life as the tendency to become enmeshed
or codependent with partners.
The good news is that if there has not been actual physical damage to
the brain, our brains retain the information we need to learn how to bond
in a healthy way. We can complete the developmental stages anytime in
our lives, through the same movements that infants use to "hook up"
their brains, as I mentioned before. The result will be that we can then
bond with partners in a healthy way.
Would you talk about how midbrain issues can show up psychologically?
The midbrain is responsible for how we make bridges to the world and how
we make buffers from the world. When I work with adults with midbrain
dysfunction, there can be lots of problems with processing stimuli. At
the extreme, people may be agoraphobic-unable to leave the house because
the world feels too overwhelming for them.
Stimuli issues arise from not being able to sort things out, or not being
able to prioritize what's important and what isn't. This can manifest
psychologically with confusion about questions such as, "What
is important? What should I do now? Where do I begin?"
Midbrain issues therefore involve organizational and focusing skills.
If the midbrain is working, we can see what we want, and we can go after
it in an organic way, without having to think it out with our high brain,
or cortex.
Some presenting concerns for people with midbrain issues might be procrastination,
staying such in ruts, or not being able to get on with their lives, in
terms of setting goals and following through with actions to reach them.
The midbrain also affects a lot of body "housekeeping" issues,
such as body temperature and sleep regulation, weight set point, metabolic
function, and the ability to respond appropriately to "enough"
in terms of eating.
For example, people with only midbrain dysfunction may have the tendency
to gain weight, whereas people with pons level dysfunction might experience
weight loss, and even anorexia, if their ability to feel hunger--and respond
appropriately to it--is neurologically impaired.
In terms of the midbrain housekeeping functions I mentioned, people with
impairment at this level might experience a whole range of physical and
psychological problems, since it's difficult to be in the world comfortably
if you're constantly fighting to regulate physical processes that should
take care of themselves naturally.
What about the relationship between the midbrain and so-called "boundary"
issues that people so often struggle with in relationships?
Yes, boundary issues! The midbrain tells us, through very specific visual
and sensory cues, where our bodies are in space and where the world is
in relation to us. I have never worked with anyone who has boundary issues
who accurately knows where their body is in space. In simple terms, they
don't know where they end and the other person begins, so it's no wonder
they have boundary problems!
As these people do their developmental work, and their midbrains begin
to function naturally, they come back and say things like, "I'm
saying 'no' more often," or "I'm setting better boundaries
for myself."
Something I've been noticing recently is the relationship between spiritual
work and the brain. I tell my clients that when they start working with
powerful energy at the spiritual level, they better get a neurological
evaluation to see if their brains are working properly.
My analogy is that if your house isn't wired properly, you won't be
able to turn on a switch without worrying about blowing a fuse or starting
a fire somewhere. On the other hand, if your house is wired right, you
can run a lot more energy through it without any fear.
That's true! I hardly need to elaborate on that, but I can share a story
from my own experience. Before I did this work, my life was focused on
looking for something outside of me-a spiritual practice or a therapy.
I'd leaf through the local resource publication and think, "Oh, that's
what I need...or that...or that...out there." I didn't trust
what I had inside myself.
When I did my own neurological repatterning, the transition wasn't immediate
because the work takes some time, but I noticed at some point that I wasn't
looking through the resource guide anymore. I had a sense of my own self-worth,
and I didn't need anything "out there" anymore. I felt grounded,
in touch with my own wholeness--or holiness--and in touch with my own
god within.
We are always in the process of trying to make ourselves whole. The more
you feel whole on the inside, the less you need from the outside to feel
whole.
That's well said. Thank you. I'd like to switch our focus now to talk
more specifically about anorexia and the brain. From your clinical experience
working with all kinds of people over many years, what would you say are
the main signs of neurological dysfunction that generally characterize
anorexia?
In the areas that I test, anorexics often don't have good pons level functioning.
As a result, they usually don't have good pain perception, and they often
don't respond appropriately to heat or cold, because they cannot accurately
perceive heat or cold. Some anorexics may also still have a grasp reflex,
which is an infant-level reflex that I can talk more about later.
In addition, anorexics may have an eye that overconverges or rotates in,
though this is not necessarily perceptible to the untrained observer.
This occurs because the pons level also controls the muscles that pull
the eyes out.
Because of this, the anorexic may have poor visual convergence and some
depth perception issues that can be mild, or severe enough to make the
client feel anxious going out into the world.
Most notably, people with pons level challenges may not be aware of when
they are hungry. For example, I have clients who say they must force themselves
to eat, or perhaps they go all day without eating because they don't feel
hunger, so they forget to eat. Lacking an accurate perception of hunger,
anorexics cannot then respond appropriately to their need for food.
Clinically, those are the main factors I check, but I also listen to the
stories anorexics tell. Often, their stories have a lot to do with neglecting
their own needs, feeling like they don't belong, or not paying attention
to their own survival needs--physically or emotionally. These may be people
who have a long history of accidents or other forms of harm. Sometimes
it almost seems as if they draw a lot of hurts to themselves.
Maybe they've had five or six head injuries, and a car accident, and they've
been hit over the head, and they've fallen down the stairs. They may have
sustained so many traumas that you wonder how one person could have survived
it all. This isn't typical of all anorexics, but it is one kind of story
an anorexic might present.
My sense about this is that these people's life-preserving instincts are
not very acute. If they had more acute survival skills, they would be
more aware of danger signals or negative cues from their environment,
so they would either avoid such situations, or they would get away from
them sooner.
The pons level is the part of the brain that notices what's happening
in the environment--both internal and external--and says, "I need
to be alive. I need to notice those things that are a threat to me--and
pay attention to them--so I can continue to be alive."
As I mentioned, anorexics are almost certain to have serious dysfunction
at this pons level. In fact, I'm not sure it's possible to actually be
anorexic without pons level impairment.
There is only one woman I have ever worked with who discussed anorexia,
but who didn't have any pons level hurt. She came into my office and said
that she had tried to be anorexic once for three weeks, trying to starve
herself in order to be thin. But she said her body wouldn't let her do
it. I thought that was fascinating!
She was the only client I have ever seen who talked about anorexia as
an issue, but who had absolutely no symptoms at the pons level. I often
work with clients with no pons level symptoms, but anorexics always exhibit
pons level trauma, even if subtle in many cases.
The point is that this client couldn't' be anorexic even when she tried,
because her body wouldn't allow it. Her brain was just too healthy to
let her starve herself.
The more I work with anorexics, the more I discover psychic and emotional
factors that may seem subjective, but which must be included in order
to give a true representation of the whole picture. If I am only working
clinically, I would simply check for these pieces: What are their eyes
doing, how appropriate are their responses to heat, cold, pain, hunger,
do they have a grasp reflex, and how do they crawl on their bellies?
For example, some people who are anorexic get down on the floor, and at
worst, I see someone who looks like a little fish, flopping along with
their hands down below their hips like little flippers. Their bodies flop
back and forth, and their legs move as if they are hooked together, like
a tail.
It almost looks like there is a phylogenetic regression. This does make
some sense, since the lower brain is sometimes called the "reptilian
brain"--that part of us that links us to our ancestors on the evolutionary
scale.
Overall, then, in answer to your question, those are some of the things
I look for clinically: eyes, strong sensory skills, mobility of belly
crawling, and hand function. In addition, I also listen carefully
to the anorexic's story.
Would you say more about the grasp reflex?
Anytime you touch the palm of newborn babies, their hands will automatically
grasp around whatever is touching them. This is a skill--a medulla and
spinal cord skill. The next skill is that the baby can open her hand out,
which is a pons level skill.
When under stress, some people who have pons level dysfunction may have
their hands revert to that infant hand, the grasping hand curled into
a little fist. The stress may be as simple as skipping, or being asked
questions in a casual conversation.
This grasp reflex is typical for people who have pons level brain injuries;
they are physically unable to release that grasp reflex. You've probably
seen it in the tightly clasped hands of some stroke victims whose pons
level has been affected.
But sometimes I see anorexics who have the tendency to close their hands
into little fists, even when they are just talking with me in ways that
would seem casual for other people.
Hmmm. I have noticed that in a couple of anorexic clients.
Yes. Neurologically, a doctor might notice it and say, "Yes, grasp
reflex is present."
But I think the grasp reflex has many emotional ramifications in terms
of the ability to open up. For example, at the stage where babies are
starting to open up their hands, they are also starting to make much stronger
connections to opening up to people and bonding.
I think the reflex ability to open the hand reflects that stage emotionally,
too. When I work with kids who are unbonded, they do their belly crawling
with their hands tightly closed into fists.
On a hypothetical scale of brain hurt form one to ten, with ten being
high, where would you place anorexics?
I don't know if I can do a "one to ten" scale, but I can speak
to the issue of severity of brain disorganization. The pons level is a
place in the brain that cannot sustain much injury without death being
the result.
But the brain is very complex. I think of the brain like a fan, with
the small part of the fan representing the brain stem and pons level,
and the upper, wide part of the fan representing the high brain, or cortex.
If a part of the wide, upper areas of the "fan" is hurt, it
will only affect a small part of your experience. But if a part of the
base of the "fan" is hurt, it can affect a significant part
of your experience, since the base radiates up and out, and therefore
affects a much greater area. Even small injuries at the pons level can
have great consequences, both physically and psychologically.
I would say that anorexics have a significant level of brain dysfunction,
compared to other clients and that of course all of our clients test at
a different place on a continuum.
For example, one of our mutual clients (who is anorexic) has more pons
level dysfunction than anyone I know who is not considered disabled. She
is walking and talking and working a full-time job. And yet, if we were
to consider just these kinds of people--people who have pons level injuries
but who are still largely functional--I would say she is struggling at
about an eight or a nine on a ten-point scale of brain disorganization.
That helps put it in perspective, because my sense is that anorexics'
level of brain dysfunction is indeed quite severe. It's a tribute to the
human spirit that these people can be walking around and living active
lives despite their significant lack of brain support. I'm amazed that
I did it myself through fifteen years of anorexia!
On the other hand, it's truly wonderful to see what can happen for
anorexics when they start doing neurological repatterning work.
I want to say in all honesty that Developmental Movement work can be very
difficult for anorexics. It plays a significant role in healing anorexia,
but when anorexics begin doing even a small part of the work, it can stimulate
so many deep emotions that it may be scary for them.
Also, when people have been that injured neurologically, it takes longer
to complete Developmental Movement Therapy. This is not only because there
is more extensive brain dysfunction to heal, but also because anorexics
generally need to proceed more slowly due to the emotional repercussions
I mentioned.
Even though it can be hard work I think neurological repatterning is an
extremely valid way to work with healing anorexia, because it stimulates
and heals the area of the brain that directly governs self-care and right-to-be
issues.
I agree. For me personally, I'd succeeded in healing all the outward
symptoms of anorexia before I found out about and then completed my own
developmental movement work. But the deep, underlying thoughts and emotional
patterns--or "crazy thinking" as I called it--did not dissipate
until I did my brain work.
You mentioned earlier that you don't think it's possible for someone to
be anorexic unless they have pons level hurt. Would you say more about
that?
I should instead have said that it may be possible for someone to be anorexic
without pons level involvement, but I've never seen that in my practice.
There is definitely a psychological profile for anorexics, and I see that
psychological profile when I work with them. However, it always appears
to correspond to their neurological situation as well.
I think that if the psychological component is present without the neurological
piece, the person would make different choices. A person with pons level
dysfunction without the anorexic psychological profile might have other
kinds of self-care issues going on, but they wouldn't be anorexic. That's
my best guess.
How do you tell the difference between stoicism and the inability to feel
pain? For instance, when I first came to you and you did the "pinch
test" to see how good my pain perception was, I couldn't feel anything
until you were pinching hard enough to bruise me.
I thought this was because I grew up in a family where emotions such
as fear, anger, or sadness were considered signs of weakness, so I figured
I had simply become stoic so I wouldn't show pain.
However, you told me this wasn't true, that if it was just stoicism,
you would have been able to see at least some change in my face--some
indication that my body was feeling pain, even if I was refusing to show
it. But you saw no change in my face, and in fact, that test showed that
I was literally unable to feel the pain until it was extremely intense.
After you did the pinch test at my initial evaluation, I finally understood
why my friends always used to ask me, before I did brain work, "Why
do you always wait until you're practically dead before you get help?"
Because of this work, I realized I did that because I was neurologically
unable to do anything different!
Fundamentally, I think the brain is a mechanism that wants us to survive.
I honestly don't think our will alone is strong enough to suppress things
that hurt us.
Some people may have a neurological tendency toward suppression, and
that might be supported psychologically. We could do studies about these
people, and say they don't feel pain because their family messages were
all about not showing pain.
But I have met siblings from those same families who are very responsive
to pain, because of what's happening in their neurological profiles. In
other words, I think the neurological piece accounts for the difference
between stoicism and physiological insensitivity to pain.
It is important to say that if somebody has a history of not being able
to feel and respond appropriately to pain, that person should not only
do brain work--they should also do their emotional work. Even if the original
trauma was primarily neurological, a lifetime of inappropriate responses
to pain will likely result in a lifetime of emotional patterns that will
also require attention as the brain work unfolds.
That makes a lot of sense. If a family has given children overt or
covert messages that say, "don't show emotions," that same family
may also have given them more than just messages. The children may also
have sustained actual physical, psychological, or sexual abuse.
Or perhaps the children were neglected in terms of not getting their basic
needs met, or in terms of not being responded to appropriately when they
were in physical or emotional pain. The neurological and psychological
pieces get interwoven together along the way.
I think the worst case I've seen in that regard was a situation where
the father said to his children, "Don't show feelings." Then
he would put his kids underwater and threaten to drown them, meanwhile
demanding that they not say anything or show any feelings about him threatening
to drown them. It was so twisted!
That kind of crazy making, double-bind behavior on the part of parents
can really hurt children at deep levels. I've heard similar stories, though
with different details, from women who have grown up in anorexic family
systems. What changes do you see in anorexics when they start to do neurological
repatterning work?
Often fear comes up--the fear of feeling. For some anorexics, it's simply
the fear that they will gain weight and get out of control. For other
people, it's fear about feeling pain, or feeling life and all its sensations
in their bodies. For others, it's the terror of feeling anything at all,
even ecstasy. The fears are different for different people, but fear is
usually the main issue for anorexics.
That matches my personal experience as well as my experience in working
with anorexic clients. As with any serious addiction, anorexic behaviors
may serve to keep intense underlying fears at bay, so the anorexic feels
more in control.
In a way, then, it's actually good when anorexics begin to connect with
their fear directly--even though this can be difficult--because at least
this means they're feeling the fear instead of avoiding it. I think that
old adage is true: "You can't heal what you don't feel."
I agree that it's a positive sign when anorexics begin to contact the
underlying fear, because then it can be addressed. Also, it's important
to understand that the repatterning work--which allows these intense feelings
to come up--is the same work that stimulates a growing sense of core strength.
This can be particularly helpful for anorexics, whose pons level is so
badly hurt that they struggle with things that most people take for granted--like
eating a casual meal with their friends or lying down to rest when they're
tired.
When anorexics do brain work, they often begin to feel a growing sense
of personal power--a sense that they can take care of themselves. They
may begin to feel closer to people and more able to share their feelings
with others.
With Developmental Movement Therapy, anorexics generally develop a stronger
sense that they can survive, and that they have a place in the universe.
I think that's the core: They begin to realize not only that they can
survive, but also that they have a right to survive.
In the context of being able to survive, then, you're saying it's essential
to be able to feel fear since fear is a basic component of our survival
mechanism. Would you talk more about the relationship between fear and
the brain?
The pons level is the part of the brain that says, "PAY ATTENTION!
RED ALERT! DANGER! GET OUT OF HERE!"
It also says things like, "You're hungry--eat something!"
If you get really hungry without eating anything, the pons level will
get louder and say, "Get something to eat NOW! Take care of it
or you're going to DIE!"
It's definitely essential to be able to feel fear or hunger or pain, so
you know where that boundary is. That's the only way you'll do something
about it.
That's another thing I often see with anorexics. They don't know where
the pain boundary is, so the pain boundary gets trampled a lot. If you
know where your pain boundary is--the line where you start hurting--then
you're less likely to do things that might hurt you.
On the other hand, if you don't know where your pain boundary is, you
won't feel fear appropriately when you approach your limits, so you won't
have a warning to stop before you get hurt. This is true both physically
and emotionally. In other words, if there is pons level impairment, you
won't be able to say "no" to physical or emotional pain very
well.
I remember something you once said about crawling on our bellies--the
first kind of forward movement we do as babies. Is its purpose to help
us get away from something we don't like?
Yes. Babies initially begin crawling to "get away from" something.
You know, that little pons level baby is very powerful! If they sense
that something is a threat, they crawl to get away from it. Eventually,
they use crawling to go toward something, but initially, the purpose of
belly crawling is to get away from danger.
We don't lose this piece of brain function, either. It's not like a baby
tooth that falls out. Hopefully, we get more and more sophisticated layers
of upper brain function, but that lower brain is still there, shouting
out. It needs to always be alert and paying attention.
It's essential that we remain capable of getting away from pain or danger.
This is a basic pons level function.
What you're saying is that if an anorexic has pons level hurt, she
won't have the instincts or the reflexes to get away from situations she
that might be harmful for her, whether those situations are related to
her physical or emotional well being.
For the most part, that's true. She can get away, but often doesn't.
There are a lot of anorexics who were seemingly healthy in early childhood
and who then became anorexic after a significant stressor in their lives,
such as the onset of puberty. Can you explain how that might happen?
It's possible for stress to bring up neurological injuries or the underlying
neurological dysfunction. Sometimes the high brain--the cortex level--has
been compensating for the lower brain functions for a long time.
When a major physical or emotional stressor arises, the underlying dysfunction
may then make itself apparent, if the high brain can no longer compensate
for the lower brain functions plus do its own job.
Another possible explanation is that the person may have had some kind
of neurological injury in the intervening time since early childhood,
such as whiplash from a car accident.
Since there is often some degree of sexual abuse in the background
of many anorexics, would you talk about how sexual abuse can impact the
brain?
I'm very interested in that, but I can't give you a linear, cause-and-effect
answer. I do have a lot of thoughts about it. Recently, I've been reading
a book that explores what kinds of characteristics are common among children
who have been sexually abused.
I believe there is likely something going on for these children neurologically.
It is possible that some of the children who get abused already have more
neurological dysfunction, which makes them more vulnerable.
For example, such a child might not put up good boundaries if they don't
know how to recognize and appropriately respond to hurt. Maybe they don't
know how to stand up for themselves and say, "Don't touch me or
I'm going to kick and scream."
If they don't know their boundaries, another person could more easily
abuse them. This is not to say that these children are inviting
the abuse, or that they are somehow responsible for it. I hate
that kind of thinking! However, there is some piece of truth in the idea
that a child who doesn't have a good sense of boundaries might be more
vulnerable to abuse.
Another answer to the question of how sexual abuse might affect the brain
revolves around the issue of early development. We have this great mechanism
within us that makes sure we do everything we need to do to help our brain
develop, so we can be healthy, whole human beings. But sometimes there
is violence in the household. Sometimes there is physical or emotional
or sexual abuse that threatens the baby.
Infancy and childhood need to be safe and joyous in order for this internal
mechanism to develop fully. However, if the environment is threatening
in some way--if the baby is physically or emotionally battered or her
needs neglected--she may withdraw. If this continues, the baby may not
play, crawl, roll around, and do the kinds of movements she needs to do
to develop neurologically.
In this way, the abuse could impact her neurologically and keep her from
growing. It could even keep her from growing physically, because a baby
who is deeply withdrawn from a scary environment might shut down and not
want to eat.
This question of the relationship between sexual abuse and brain dysfunction
is very complicated. We could talk for days about it and uncover all kinds
of related issues. But overall, those are two of the main ways I think
abuse is related to brain dysfunction.
In the first scenario, a child who is already neurologically impaired
may not have strong enough instincts to ward off--or escape from--inappropriate
behavior by others. Again, this in no way means that the child is
responsible for the abuse.
The other way abuse can negatively impact the brain is when a child is
denied a safe enough environment so that she can freely move and explore,
and thus do the physical movements necessary to complete the brain's developmental
stages.
I appreciate your repeated mention of the fact that a child's neurological
impairment and increased vulnerability does not make her responsible for
any abuse that is perpetrated on her. The danger of "blaming the
victim" can be particularly acute in the case of anorexics, because
they may already blame themselves.
Anorexics tend to be overly responsible--sometimes to the point of thinking
everything is their fault. They might think they are somehow to blame
for the abuse, since they didn't know how to communicate their boundaries
better, or avoid that kind of person better, or fight off the abuse more
effectively once it began.
Because of this tendency toward self-blame, I want to join you in reiterating
that no matter what shape a person's brain is in, the responsibility for
any and all abuse rests squarely on the shoulders of the abuser. Period.
Yes. There are definitely people who will hurt anyone, no matter how good
the other person's boundaries are.
And abuse can and does affect and hurt a healthy brain.
That's right. It's also important to understand that the younger a person
is, the more any abuse will impact the health of her brain.
The biggest cycle of growth happens when the brain is first developing.
If you think of development like a spiral, then birth to six or eight
years is the first big cycle. Then we work through these stages again
and again.
The first main cycle is the one I work with, from birth to six or eight
years. But every time you replay that cycle--at whatever stage you're
in--abuse can retard your growth at that stage of development as well.
Say you're 14 years old, and you're starting to reach out to the world
in a sexual way, and that's when you get abused. That abuse can impact
your growth neurologically, because many functions that relate to social
skills and judgment are maturing at this age.
If there's a healthy brain underneath the stress of abuse at that time,
then I think it's more likely that the person will recover from the abuse
as a teenager. However, we spoke earlier about what might happen if there
isn't a healthy brain underneath.
That is, if there is a significant stressor later in life and the brain
has already been hurt, then the stressor may cause the underlying dysfunction
to make itself more apparent or become more pronounced.
Is there any kind of ballpark figure you could give for how long it
might take an anorexic--say, one who is pretty severely impaired neurologically--to
heal her brain doing Developmental Movement Therapy?
I'd say that if the person were willing to work really solidly for three
years, she would be through most of it. But the only answer I really have
is that the person would have to keep working until she has "paid
her brain debt."
I know that may not be a very satisfying answer. For most functional adults
who are doing developmental work, it generally takes two to three years
for them to complete the work. But for people who are anorexic, who have
so many psychological components to their work, it may take longer because
so much comes up for them emotionally.
It's important to note that I do work with people who have pons level
dysfunction who don't feel hungry and who don't take good care of themselves
very well around food. These people will do the program and start feeling
hunger.
At that point, they simply begin eating again, because they don't have
the underlying emotional patterns attached to issues of self-care. These
people often get over their starvation issues in three to five months,
because there is no emotional processing to do.
I don't know if you'd call these people anorexic, because they don't have
the fears surrounding food, or any of the other psychological issues commonly
associated with anorexia. I don't know if that's classic anorexia, do
you?
I wouldn't call it that. I realize the term "anorexia" can
be used to describe a basic medical condition of not eating. However,
the kind of anorexia I'm talking about with you here is an extremely complex
illness that arises from an interplay between physical, emotional, neurological,
familial, environmental, sociological, and spiritual factors.
I wonder if you'd talk more about this issue of people having pons
level hurt to the point of not taking good care of themselves around self-care
issues such as eating, yet they don't become anorexic in terms of its
classic psychological profile.
I've noticed that this situation shows up more often in men than in women.
Sometimes it happens for women, but in my experience, it shows up more
often in men. For people with severe pons level dysfunction who don't
fit the psychological profile of anorexia, their brain dysfunction may
simply manifest as them not taking good care of themselves in other ways.
For example, they may simply "forget" to eat because they don't
get proper hunger signals, as mentioned before. They may take unnecessary
risks that put them in danger. Or they might not have good self-care around
survival issues such as keeping a roof over their heads.
That's interesting. I've thought a lot about why the vast majority
of anorexics are women. Again, I'm talking here about anorexics who also
have its psychological profile, as opposed to using the term to describe
only the medical condition of not eating.
Although I think anorexia is very complex--and therefore ultimately mysterious--I
do appreciate the importance of unraveling whatever components we can
discern, so these issues can be addressed and hopefully healed.
It's no secret that males and females are treated very differently in
our culture. Starting at birth--maybe even while they're still in the
womb!--people are bombarded daily with various messages about what it
means to be a girl and what it means to be a boy.
As you know, these messages come from parents and relatives, from
schools and churches, from peers and the media, from various ethnic groups,
from the government, and from the culture as a whole.
For women, it seems like there is a pervasive barrage of messages--both
blatant and subtle--that denigrate womanhood or the feminine in one way
or another.
Men are also exposed to messages that can be equally destructive to
their physical and emotional well-being. However, men are generally not
taught to consider themselves "second-class" citizens, and they
typically have more leeway in regard to the size and shape of their bodies.
In terms of familial and cultural conditioning, at least, I think it's
much less likely that men in American society would struggle with the
same psychological issues many anorexic women struggle with, such as extreme
body fears or the need to be "invisible" and not take up space.
Men do have a lot more latitude about their bodies. In fact, for men,
being bigger is often considered better, stronger, and more male-and being
more male is considered a good thing in our culture. So I agree that men
will generally not experience the same psychological ramifications that
women do in regard to their bodies.
On the other hand, pons level dysfunction in men may result in other kinds
of self-care issues, some of which anorexic woman might have in addition
to their eating disorder.
For example, men with pons level impairment may be more accident-prone
than people with a healthy pons, because they don't recognize danger signals
and/or because they don't realize when they've been hurt. They might accidentally
get their hands cut up doing some task, but not notice until much later-and
then they might wonder how it happened in the first place.
I have a question about anorexia versus bulimia. Do you see anything
different in regard to brain issues for these two kinds of eating disorders?
I see both anorexia and bulimia as arising from the same pons level hurt.
Most people who have bulimia tend to have that same kind of neurological
profile. I don't know why they make a different choice in terms of behaviors,
though.
One person who was bulimic said she would eat a lot, but not know that
her stomach was hurting for a long, long time. You know those uncomfortable
feelings that happen when you overeat? This person said she wasn't even
aware of any discomfort. I think that's in the same category of not being
able to feel and respond to pain or distress, which is a pons level issue.
I was bulimic for 8 years in my late teens and early 20s, at the beginning
of my 15-year voyage through anorexia. When I binged, I remember that
I could eat a ton of food before I felt uncomfortable, and then I would
throw up so I'd feel completely empty. I went from one extreme to the
other.
When you say that, it reminds me of people who cut themselves on their
arms with razor blades, just to be able to feel, because their pain threshold
is so impaired.
I've thought about cutting in regard to the brain, too, because that
behavior does feel somehow similar to my own past experience with various
forms of self-abuse.
As I think about everything we've talked about and everything I've learned
from you over the years, I continue to be stunned by the profound impact
of brain hurt in relation to anorexia.
I've often said to friends and colleagues that I sometimes want to scream
when I hear people say--on talk shows or in the media--that anorexics
just need to eat more. That's like telling someone with diabetes that
they just need to process sugar better. Not only is this kind of statement
uncompassionate, it's downright ignorant!
I wish you could be on Oprah to talk about the neurological component
of anorexia, so people could understand that there is a "missing
link" piece that very few people understand or even know about in
regard to eating disorders.
Many of the other factors that give rise to anorexia are being increasingly
well researched and addressed, I think, including the mind-body connection.
But hardly anyone recognizes that the mind-body connection is not just
a metaphor--it's literal!
Everyone's piece of the puzzle about anorexia is important, in terms
of unraveling and healing the complexity of issues related to eating disorders.
It's just that the neurological piece is not getting enough press time
yet. That's why I'm interviewing you and that's why I've been such a mouthpiece
for brain work.
As I've said many times, neurological repatterning work is the single
most important work I've done in 30-some years of work on myself. And
that's coming from a longtime counselor who values all the other forms
of healing work that are helpful in overcoming eating disorders or any
other debilitating psychological condition.
I now know that if my pons and midbrain had been intact instead of compromised,
there's no way I could have become anorexic at age 17. Now that my pons
and midbrain are "hooked up" from doing brain work, there's
no way I could be bulimic or starve myself again. My body simply wouldn't
allow it.
Yes. I think about what would happen if a woman in our culture had serious
pons level hurt, but was never shamed or abused as a woman, never treated
as a second-class citizen, and never encouraged to discount her own needs
in order to take care of others.
If womanhood was honored and celebrated in all its fullness, I think
there would be very little incidence of anorexia as a psychological disorder.
This interview was revised and updated by both Bette and Cat in October
2007. Its original version was first published in 1993 as part of Cat's
doctoral dissertation, which was titled Canary in a Coal Mine: Anorexia's
Cry for Wholeness.
You can read more about Cat's personal healing story and witness her
recovery process in pictorial form by viewing the free online version
of her deck of 64 drawings called "Shadow
and Light: Images of Change and Transformation for Women in Recovery."
For more information about neurological repatterning work, please
contact Bette Lamont care of Developmental Movement Consultants at 206-417-1072
or blamont@serv.net.
Feel free to contact Cat for
additional resources, referrals, and consultation support.
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